A death in the family is truly a sad reality. It can send even the sunniest person in turmoil. It is financially, emotionally, mentally and physically devastating. Especially here in the Philippines where wakes can last up to more than a week, and even the grieving family has to swing to entertainment mode at night up to the wee hours of the morning, the busiest time when most family and friends visit. During this gloomy time, sleep is not regular, exercise regimen is put on hold, and healthy food choices are not always available. Emotional eating is a sweet retreat for those depressed by their loss. Many dieters and lifestyle changers fall off the wagon. They tend to think: they are sad, they are groggy from lack of sleep, dehydrated from all that crying…they need a break…they need a binge!
That is similar to what happened to me, although the death was from my husband’s side so I was not all that emotionally drained, I was indeed drained physically. I was so sleepy, after stopping my coffee addiction cold turkey, I had no choice but to drink coffee again during the wake. After not eating meat for a month, I succumbed to eating whatever was available, because after the first few days of the wake, I realized that if I let my blood sugar dip so low, I transform into such a b*tch! And this does not really help my grieving hubby. I stopped exercising. When I had free time, I opted for some shut eye instead of hopping on the exercise bike. I was back to my old self.
Now after the burial, we are trying to move on with our lives. I’m sad that I gained back the 10 lbs I lost from my no-meat diet. I now feel sluggish and tired all the time. And I feel that my conviction not to eat meat is not as strong anymore.
I need to recoup and get back on my healthy-living horse.
I will not let this tragedy ruin my life and my family’s.
I will start again and be decided.
I will be healthy. I will lose weight.
This is for my body, not to look good, but to be healthier.
This is for my family.
This is for me.
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